How many different feelings can you feel at a time?

- Anguish, Sadness, Loneliness, Escapism, Want-to-break-free, at times even blissful, knowing the futility of it all, and finally, suicidal -

All of these visited me yesterday...

Subhashitam...

(Thanks to my friend, Darshan, I got this wonderful piece of wisdom)

पत्रं नैव यदा करीरविटपे दोषो वसन्तस्य किम् ।

नोलूकोऽप्यवलोकते यदि दिवा सूर्यस्य किं दूषणम् ।

धारा नैव पतन्ति चातकमुखे मेघस्य किं दूषणम् ।

यत् पूर्वं विधिना ललाटलिखितं नन्मार्जितुं क: क्षम: ॥

-- Can the spring season(vasanta ritu) be blamed if the karIr tree (a leafless tree of the deserts) doesn't blossom (even in the spring)? Is the sun to be blamed if an owl cannot see during the day? Can the clouds be blamed if the rain drops doesn't fall into the beak of Chataka bird? Who can change the fate written on one's forehead.

So, stop blaming others for everything that happens in your life.

I had first seen this ashram, the Guruji and the pandits-in-the-making on the Discovery Channel some times ago... And since then, their images haven't left my mind for a moment... The place is in Rishikesh... I can feel it's strong pull... Two of my best friends has been there...!!!

I await my turn..

{P.S : Thanks to one Anon, I got to know that this is Parmarth Niketan Ashram at Rishikesh. More can be found at www.parmarth.com. Thank you, Anon... :-)}

There are long waits after the sms has gone... a 'good night' missed call has been made... almost every single night... but there is no response... and the wait continues...